You know what I love about life? Growth. You know what's better than that? Realizing your growth. Up until about a year ago I was only focused on results. I was only attentive to the final destination. Screw the route getting there or enjoying the scenery while on the way. I was only focused on being finished. And with that mindset I really didn't value getting a good result. My thing was that if I was finished I did something good. 2018 was maybe the most pivotal year of my life. Definitely a two tales of the same year. April of 2018...I can honestly say that I had hit rock bottom. Personal issues, not happy with my employment situation, creativity was nonexistent, and I was generally an unhappy person. There was an end in sight, but let's just say I wouldn't be typing this right now if I followed through what my mind was trying to steer me towards. A dark place would have been a joy to have been in at that point in my life. Then one day I just decided that I got one chance to do everything I want to do. This isn't a video game where I'll die and I have extra lives to rely on. I made plenty of changes. Physically I've decided to take better care of my body. The balance of eating healthy and being more active has made a difference so far. Mentally I'm working on doing things out of the box now and taking on challenges I wouldn't have thought. It's helping bring out a creative flow that it is, to be honest, even new to me. I don't have the mentality of being fearful of what everyone else thinks. I'm open to receiving harsh criticism and just outright negativity. I won't give it the energy it deserves, but I'll take that energy and flip it to a positive and have it work in my favor. Here is the biggest thing for me though. Emotionally I've learned to enjoy the process. Enjoy every second of what you are going into. You walking five minutes away just to the store and back? Enjoy that walk. Take in everything about that journey. Admire the path. Immerse yourself in the surroundings. You can take that to a higher level, too. Ever since I've adapted this mindset it seemed everything has changed. Now I'm not saying that I'll never have a bad day again, but I'm equipped with the tools to help me navigate through it. I'm learning to live in the moment. I've never understood that phrase...until now.